I thought I had it rough in Macau

but to read something about me, written by someone I still care for though I shouldn’t be, who blames me for what I’ve done – inaccurately and skewed in the person’s perspective at that – the pain is indescribable… even my loneliest and most homesick moments in Macau didn’t hurt as much as what this person has said about me.

My heart is absolutely, absolutely shattered.