She thinks she has not gotten over her… treachery (because she is melodramatic in nature and keeping her word is a very big deal to her). Yesterday la-la land was almost inaccessible. She had that awful feeling of having too much energy and had to release it through deliberate spasms. It must be all those negative thoughts transforming into energy that has to be expelled before sleep will come.
She also thinks she always hurt people not so much because they have hurt her too, but because she doesn’t know how to tell them how hurt she was by their actions and it got lost in translation through her acts of self-preservation. Or perhaps this is just some sorry excuse for self-justification for doing something very very wrong?
Sigh, with someone like that living inside of you, you certainly don’t need enemies. You are your own.
23/6 Suddenly she doesn’t feel guilty anymore… a little
bird blog pretty much told her she wasn’t missed at all… while that doesn’t say much of her, it’s relief nonetheless that have stood someone up who does not really care for her presence anyway. *shrugs*