blogging gobbledygook and such

You’re having what you call a mid-blogging crisis. Akin to mid-life crisis, but without the stupid urge to fuck some sweet young thing to prove you’re not getting older.

Mid-blogging crisis occurs after a certain period of blogging when regular readers have been established, blog stats do not show drastic spikes and plunges, some people on your blogroll begin to call you their friend, and you feel a certain amount of pressure to produce a post that will prompt as many comments as the last, because like people in the limelight, you’re only as good as your last performance.

You feel anxious if you don’t post once a day at least, because of that performance factor, and you have to stop yourself from posting every day lest you get even more anxious and obsessive in the future. You feel your heart sink when you see your stats plummet the day after a good post was published, because you haven’t produce a new one yet, and have no inspiration for one. And when you do finally get inspired, you feel despair when two hours after you publish a post you thought would appeal to your readers, but no comments still. Actually, blogging sod’s law always dictates that the post you think is good nobody would really care for it, but the posts you wrote in a slipshod, whimsical, self-indulgent manner would be hotly debated in the comments section.

You also feel a little depressed because you feel your blogging persona is more attractive than your actual self. And you question yourself, if you are not being yourself, because this side of yourself never shows itself except in blogging, so is that part of your true self, or is it a persona that you unconsciously fake because it is a more interesting character than who you really are in real life? Surely you have felt some sort of disappointment when you finally see the face behind a blog you’ve always enjoyed, only to find the real person is so pimply-faced and sullen and uninteresting, while in his blog, he’s extremely witty and snarky and funny that you naturally conjure up an attractive-looking face to go along with that seemingly attractive personality.

Then you feel even more depressed because you can’t quit the blogging scene, because that would mean disappointing your regular readers who, though aren’t as crazy about your blog as you would like them to be, have come to look forward to your next post, and you thrive on pleasing your readers because that’s the whole point of blogging, isn’t it? To have your 15 minutes of relative fame in safe anonymity, besides all that clichรฉd crap about blogging as a means of cathartic expressions and making new friends and all that shit.

You try to count your blogging blessings by thinking of all the good things that happen to you because of your blog. Like how many people you have interacted with in the course of publishing your own thoughts, like how many smiles you have smiled when you read a funny comment left by a reader, like how many heartwarming moments you get when a blogging buddy makes your day by sending you an e-card or giving you something worth $15 for free for practically no reason at all. Then you feel like an absolute, utter arsehole for being so ungrateful of all that you have received from blogging, which is generally the basis of mid-blogging crisis.

So you try to translate your frustrated energy onto your blogging editor, hoping that writing about your feelings can magically conjure up a post good enough to publish, after several failed attempts to post something profound and witty and thoughtful, which was the trigger of your general sense of frustration that you term mid-blogging crisis. Et voila! A self-indulgent post about your mid-blogging crisis.

“I think I need a hug.” – Donkey, Shrek

Comments on: "Is there such a thing as a mid-blogging crisis?" (10)

  1. lovelyloey said:

    Like a real mid-life crisis, one can ignore it or fret about it. Either way, it passes. There are some who are aloof and detached enough to not give too much thought to mid-life crisis, with or without achievements. And there are some who get insecure over the slightest manner.
    So, I guess ultimately it depends on how we see life in general. If we always feel the need and commitment to be the best we are, then yes, mid-blogging crisis is going to be mind-boggling. But still, it passes sooner or later. Yep.

    sulz: well, everything passes, but in the meantime, will moan and fret about it until it goes away. it’s one of those mood you have when all you want to do is let out a long, huge moan. Of displeasure, that is, as opposed to its more pleasurable counterpart.

  2. everybody goes through one I guess! Just got over mine a few weeks back, and I’m not as successful as you! It’s a phase I guess, and I’m sure you’ll get over it… Do you keep a journal of sorts? if any good idea comes, you can quickly scribble it in and think about it later!

    sulz: not as successful as self in what? getting over it? you’re blogging already what… this blog is the journal. self’s blogging is done by inspiration, so a lot of times those stored ideas become stale and don’t want to blog about it anymore after that.

  3. i know exactly how you feel! especially about the blogging persona and the “real” me. or i the blog me me and the “real” me has been a fake all along? i just don”t know anymore. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

    sulz: well, if you read below, kalyani’s perspective is one way to look at it. thought it sounded quite true.

  4. I tend to think that my blogging persona is truer than my daily-life persona. I am sure that when people who know me in my ‘real’ life read my blog, they are quite surprised. Whereas my best friend, when she first read my blog, found my blog persona totally predictable.

    I mean, everyday you are weighed down by social customs, expectations, etc. and have to share your space with others. You have to listen to others, have to keep a tab on what you say, and so on. A blog is your own space. That’s you uninhibited.

    sulz: that’s a nice perspective; you’re assured that it’s you because your best friend sort of ‘validifies’ your blog, whereas for someone like self who doesn’t have a best friend, how exactly would she know? oh well, this post isn’t meant to find any answers, it’s just to rant and moan like every other person.

  5. I like Kalyani’s perspective. Guess I better go get my best friend to read my blogs and find out the answer to my question. ๐Ÿ™‚

    sulz: you do that. didn’t know you’re blogging anonymously?

  6. no so much anonymous but more no one really reads my blogs any way.. ๐Ÿ™‚

    sulz: but you’ve barely begun in the world of blogging. let’s see your stats the same time next year. ๐Ÿ˜‰

  7. Does it mean you will sleep with a young blogger ?

    sulz: hell, would sleep with a younger guy, he doesn’t need to blog! but younger by 3 years at the most, am not a paedophile.

  8. thanks for your faith in my blog stats. ๐Ÿ˜€

  9. My online persona so totally outranks my offline one that they’re not even speaking to one another. Ya makes yer choice…

    sulz: nice to know am not the only one with this affliction… so that means if ever met you personally, you’d be like a quiet mouse in contrast to your online persona?

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