Currently am living a godless life. It is self’s belief that if you’re a so-and-so, what happens in your afterlife is as according to what your religion says. So Christians would go to Christian heaven, Muslims to Muslim heaven, atheists would just cease to exist, and so on. There would be no such thing as Hell because Hell exists for the unbelievers and people who denounce the religion. (Because if you’re a sinner but you still believe in the religion, chances are you’d squeak past Heaven’s gates.) If believe in a heaven for every religion, then hell becomes redundant.
Despite being an agnostic and theist of sorts, am a little afraid of dying without a religion. Children have been, perhaps still are, taught that if they didn’t believe in God, they’d go to Hell. Though am not a child anymore and can tell between rational and irrational, this belief still haunts the back of self’s mind. Doubt creeps in and that question pops up: What if? What if it’s true? What if after you die, you’d really go to Hell because you didn’t have a religion?
In self’s one mind, am considering converting to a religion. This mind is thinks that it’s something that should be considered in old age, when one is at the brink of death. Many people do that; perhaps mortality is an excellent spiritual wake-up call. This mind is also thinking that if there’s any religion she would convert to, it would be Christianity, simply because it is the one she knows best from her brief forays in Sunday church as a child, and another brief spell in Christian youth groups.
Self’s other mind argues that that is a ridiculous rationale for becoming a Christian. (Ridiculous, but surely understandable?) Becoming a Christian on the basis that your mortality is dwindling and that you don’t want to go to Hell is a shallow way of thinking of religion. After all, being Christian should not be something that you want to be just before death – it’s a lifetime commitment to Jesus Christ and a way of lifestyle that is recommended by the religion. It’s unfair and insincere to commit all the sins before you declare, “Okay, my time looks like it’s up, so now I’ll become a Christian and be pious.” (Yea, yea, there are those Christians who tell you that Christians are not sinless, but neither their conscience nor the church would allow them to commit one without much stick for it, no?)
But then again, doubt if any pastor or priest would turn down a dying person’s request to accept Jesus Christ in his / her life, sincerity notwithstanding.
Also, this other mind argues that if the reason you’re not a Christian now is because you have doubts of it, what makes you think that you’d be convinced later in life, before death? (Well, the mind and person changes over the years, don’t they?) And it also reminds you that there’s no guarantee that Christianity is the one and true religion – that’s what the other religion advocates too.
So what happens in life after death in your mind?
(If this post reveals the blogger’s laughable concept of religion, you may reeducate her in a non-preachy way. All religions / non-religions welcomed.)