Sigh, I am in such a dilemma!
This semester, I really only need 2 regular electives in order to graduate with enough credits. I’d have my hands just full enough, because whatever free time I have left I have to devote it to my final year paper.
The thing is… I want to take three electives.
There’s the foreign language elective, which I don’t exactly have to register but still sit in the class because the teacher’s really nice and knows me. But I know I can get an A in it, so why not take and improve my GPA (after my worst results ever the last semester)?
There’s another elective, which would be useful to take because my final year paper is related to the subject. I could even ask the lecturer for advice. This class, I’m not as confident about getting an A. Furthermore, the class time is on a day where I don’t have any classes. So if I drop this, I’d have that day free of classes, which I can devote to my paper or work at my part-time job.
Then there’s the elective that I personally want to take, which is an ethics class. I’m not guaranteed an A in this class, but there’s no exam, and the lecturer’s super nice. However, it’s quite a killer because it’s a 3-hour elective and class is 3 hours long in one go (usually electives like this are divided into two classes a week).
I know I’ve said before that I shouldn’t obsess about my GPA or CGPA because it’s the learning process that’s important, but at the same time I do want a good grade to graduate with. It’s like I know I’m
fat voluptuous, but why shouldn’t I look harder for clothes that fit and flatter my figure? Haha, okay, terrible analogy, but do you see my point?
I wouldn’t mind doing all three, but I’m afraid that my grades would be affected because I’m juggling too much, not to mention my sanity. And don’t tell me I should take all three and not worry about the grades, because I can’t. I’m a Malaysian student, and it’s been ingrained in us that grades matter. I wasn’t like that in primary or secondary school, because I wasn’t interested in the subjects I was learning other than English. Now I’m taking subjects that I’m interested in and smart enough to score if I put in the effort and with some luck.
I’m just really scared that it’s too much for me and I can’t take it and I’d get terrible grades and it’ll just make me feel like a big failure. And yes, I know that doesn’t make me a failure! But it still doesn’t make me feel any less so if the worst came true!
I know I’ll make my own decision soon. But I would really appreciate your perspective. Knowing me, I would probably do the opposite of what you recommend, but that’s only because your perspective would make me realise what I really want. So please, click on the comments link! This way please… 😀
Edit: I’ve solved it! I shall take my language elective along with the ethics elective. As for the paper-related elective, I have spoken to the lecturer and she has allowed me to attend the class without registering for the course. So I get to have my Tuesdays off if I don’t feel like attending the paper-related class, and at the same time I can enter it to gain more knowledge hopefully which I can apply to writing my final year paper.