I swear I wrote this post before this happened… Just had other posts that I wanted to publish first.
When you have a personal blog, you tend to write about things that affect you very personally, whether in a positive or negative way. If it’s positive, the only person you can potentially embarrass is yourself, since it can be pretty silly to be raving about a crush you have on this guy, or talking about your mom and dad in a way you could never say to them because it’s so awkward to show appreciation to the people closest to you sometimes.
When it’s negative, chances are people in your life are involved in it, and they are the people you can hurt the most by writing about what you feel on a very public space, despite the personal atmosphere.
I am doing this right now, and I don’t proclaim to have found a better way to express my negativity on my blog without hurting the people I talk about negatively. Even though I try, by giving pseudonyms to give them a semblance of privacy, it doesn’t guarantee total anonymity. And even if nobody ever knows who exactly am I talking about here, it doesn’t make the person feel less hurt for knowing that this is how much hatred or anger or dislike I have that I have to rant in public in a passive aggressive sort of way.
To all the people I have mentioned negatively in my blog posts (with the exception of trolls and disagreements in comments), I want to say I am sorry that in my attempt to express my frustration and hurt, that I inevitably hurt you too. That is never my intention – my posts are first and foremost to express myself, and never intended to hurt the people I care about. I guess in that sense, you are collateral damage. If you are ever hurt by what I have written here, please tell me and give me a chance to explain myself or apologise to you. I think you are entitled to express your disappointment in me, and in a way I do deserve it because if I have a problem with you, I should really be talking it over with you instead of airing dirty laundry in public in a passive aggressive way. Even though I have the right to say what I want, you are entitled to have privacy too.
Just because I have the right to express myself, doesn’t mean that I should put exercising my right above the feelings of people I care about. And if I choose to do so, I must be ready to face the music.