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I made my first ever passport today!! This is the symbol of my gaining independence… The day I use it is the day I will be solely responsible for my entire self. (Not that I wasn’t to begin with, but well, my family are quite mollycoddling by nature, so I kind of let myself be taken care of most of the time am not very independent.)

Lately I’m not in a blogging mood. (I’ve been in a bit of a reading frenzy, to make up for the past couple of months when I was so busy with college, final semester and all.) Looking at the frequency of my posts, you must think that I must be crazy to be blogging any more than I already have, but usually I space out my posts between days… so at this point I always have a future post or two, but right now I don’t, so it feels like I’m stuck in a blogging rut. Which is silly, really, because I actually have a few ideas swirling in my mind, but somehow they are either never at the front of all the other thoughts swirling in there when I am in the mood to blog, or I am too lazy to blog (gasp?) when it is.

Meanwhile, to tide you over until I actually get around to blogging those things, here’s a little video of my Handwritten Valentine Project, inspired after seeing Juan’s video of his trip to Russia. And then I’ve done two memes here; one was tagged by Ish and the other I found here and I’m treating it like a meme.


Meme One

β€œThink of THE song that most inspires you to write, whether it gives you an idea for a story, script or just puts you into a better frame of mind AND/OR peek into the lyrics and find a verse that sums up the theme of whatever project it is you’re working on.

If possible, post a video of the song to convey to readers the full context of the song and the mood it puts you into. Finally, send the assignment to five other writers to do as well.”

Dashboard Confessional – Stolen
All-American Rejects – Move Along
Colbie Caillat – Realize
Lighthouse Family – Ocean Drive (I also love Free & High too)
Mika – Happy Ending
Shannon Noll – Shine
DJ Sammy & Yanou feat. Do – Heaven

The songs I’ve listed sort of inspires me in a way that it makes me imagine certain scenes or memories in my head when I hear it. Tagging: Crazyasuka, CJWriter, Poonam, Ashish, Lovelyloey.


Meme Two

i am: sulz.
i think: a whole damn lot – mostly fluffy stuff.
i know: some things.
i want: a boyfriend, dammit!
i have: no boyfriend, dammit!
i wish: for a cash cow to fund my summer course.
i hate: papaya; haven’t touch the stuff for years.
i miss: college. 😦
i fear: dying.
i feel: okay.
i hear: the usual noise in the house.
i smell: M’s dinner.
i crave: pancakes.
i search: for nothing, at the moment.
i wonder: if will ever fulfill my familial dreams.
i regret: breaking off a friendship in my teenage years, but in a way it’s made me appreciate my friendships better, so there was something good that came out of it.
i love: reading.
i ache: in my right hand (carpal tunnel?).
i care: about treating people fairly and being treated fairly.
i always: eat too fast.
i am not: very smart.
i believe: in karma.
i dance: to nothing; i can’t!
i sing: when i’m in the mood or if i’m trying to be annoying.
i cry: too often, too easily.
i don’t always: eat healthily. 😦
i fight: verbally.
i write: in my blog.
i win: in tai ti most of the time.
i lose: my temper quite easily.
i never: thought i’d be where i am today.
i confuse: people with my ramblings sometimes.
i listen: to people but not many are willing to confide.
i can usually be found: in front of the computer.
i am scared: i will suffer painful health problems in the future.
i need: to feel safe.
i am happy about: the near future.


ps. Does anybody know where I can interact with people around the world for non-dating purposes? (Clearly, I have not been searching with the right key words.) As in, I’m looking to e-mail a local to know about the place where I’m going for my summer course (which I will reveal to you dear readers once I have truly stepped foot upon that country).

Comments on: "The First Step to Independence" (34)

  1. lovelyloey said:

    Well, not exactly an interaction place, but I guess is a good place to start; read about people’s “adventures” in these places and all.
    And since you’re going to blog when you get there, I gather you’re not going on an eco trip or safari trip to some inaccessible place in the world … πŸ˜›

    sulz: ooh, thanks for the link. haha, of course i’m not going for a mother-nature-bonding trip; do i look like i can survive without a computer with internet access?? i just hope i’d have time though…

  2. A new passport – how exciting! I remember how excited I was when I got my passport for the first time!

    Please don’t stop blogging though, whatever happens! I really like your blog!!

    Oh, and thanks for linking to those songs. I hadn’t heard them before, and they’re really good!

    sulz: yeah, imagine how much more exciting when i actually get to use it. πŸ˜‰

    of course i’m not going to stop blogging! i see myself doing this forever… i don’t know how is that going to happen with just 3mb space, haha. πŸ˜€

    glad you like them. they’re my all-time favourites. πŸ™‚

  3. Sulz! That passport is gorgeous!

    I am so jealous!

    Why am I always jealous of you? (why are you always taking stuff I am dying for?)

    No, congratulations on the passport and the independence.

    I think your first paragraph got me thinking… maybe that is why I am so desperate about moving abroad, and why I get so uneasy when my family talks about moving to Australia with me.

    Thing is… I have always been independend. I never had any help with my homework, I never had a curfew, my parents never showed up in school because they trusted me. I have been able to stay out till late hours since I was … 16 or something, and I get home whenever I please….

    But I still feel like my family is very “mollycoddling”? loved that word, haha!

    I also want to take care of myself, and if I always have someone to take care of me, I will just let them do it…

    I know I can do it, but first I need to get out there and make sure.

    And that’s why I’m jealous of your passport.

    Well, I can buy a passport really (well, not now, cause I’m broke). But for most countries I need a visa anyway. Do you need a visa?

    I need a visa for crossing a bridge into Venezuela. Nobody likes us Colombians, and that’s why. Meh.

    I am totally responding to your memes.

    BTW. Sorry for behaving weirdly lately.

    sulz: haha, yeah, ‘cos it’s still new. πŸ˜€ but the crimson red is quite nice… i wonder what colour are passports in different countries now. don’t be jealous of me, this is the first time i’m doing something like this! your time will come and you’ll be glad to be you when it does. πŸ™‚ besides, i don’t think you’d want to go where i’m going… i mean, even i don’t want to go there, as in, it isn’t a place where i want to visit on my own, it just happens i have an opportunity to go there and i’m taking it. πŸ™‚

    wow, are your family willing to cross continents just so you can live in a country you’ve been dreaming of? i think they’re worried if you can take good care of yourself, because of your depression and all. you should travel around colombia a few more times, maybe that can convince them you’ll fine by yourself in australia? haha, sounds like a flimsy plan, but it’s a start. and i too love the word mollycoddle, it’s funny like my sheepish shoes and reminds me of arthur weasley’s pet name for molly weasley in harry potter, which is mollywobbles. haha!

    i don’t think i need a visa to where i’m going, but for the places that i do want to go, probably. well, malaysia isn’t very popular too, since it’s largely a muslim country and just as long as you live in it you’re possibly having terrorist relations. πŸ™„ (sweeping statement, but that’s how it feels sometimes when you read what people think of my country!)

    good, we need happy posts in your blog asap. πŸ˜‰ i know you’re in a funk right now (or was) so let’s hope you’ll get out of it soon. (don’t be sorry, you can’t help it sometimes – i’m not depressed but even i have my cranky moods that i just can’t seem to control.)

  4. Yeah the country and relation to terrorism thing. I haven’t heard anything about Malaysia in here. A girl I know went around Asia and loved Malaysia and that’s the only reference I ever had, so maybe I am just lucky. I like it that Colombia is gaining a better reputation in Australia because of the qualified immigrants and the high control (so only the “good” people enter, so aussies get to see the good of colombians).

    Yes I know I need to stabilize myself before I can get out on my own. If it wasn’t for depression I would be pretty willing to go anywhere! I have proved myself to be able to take care of myself when depression is not involved. But I guess the danger is “what if you have another episode like that”.

    My family wants to be with me, but even if they didn’t they have been planning to go to Canada. Colombia is a nice place for the weekend, but not so much to live.

    I actually want to travel around Colombia before I go out.

    I can’t say it’s in the past, but at least I am out of bed and virtually socializing. I am not ready to get out yet, tomorrow I’ll make some attempts, and maybe by the end of the week I’ll try to get back to work. I am not rushing it until I’m sure. It just has proved bad in the past… I just know I don’t want to be like this, I hate it! I feel like I’m locked! I want to do so many things!

    Ok, end of the rant.

    sulz: of course she loved it, things are really cheap here and food tastes fantastic. πŸ˜‰ oh, i didn’t know your family plans to migrate, in which case australia is a good place to go… australia is one of the top places malaysians migrate to. i want to travel around my country too… i’ve hardly been anywhere!

    well, my fingers are crossed things will be fine soon and i’m giving you the museditions treatment – sending good thoughts your way. {{good vibrations to colombia}} πŸ˜›

  5. i’m leaving on a jet plane……..don’t know when i’ll be back again….

    dear sulz, i’m happy for you! i have been abroad on my own, but it was not a way to be independent. i went to india for one a half month on an art residency and to berlin for a month on a language grant.

    i wish i could stay longer, you know? cos, by the time i adapted to the new ways, it was time for me to leave. 😦

    sulz: thanks! i think you were independent to begin with when you went away to those places. πŸ™‚ wish i have a grant to use to!

    i think that is exactly how i will feel at the end of my trip. i wonder if i will change from this trip.

  6. eh eh, mana nak lari ni? hawaii? indonesia? pakistan? cuba? XD i wished i had the dough…

    and my meme!:

    i want: a girlfriend (her), dammit!
    i have: no girlfriend, dammit!


    sulz: going to a mystery country for a summer course! mystery location will be revealed once have landed there. πŸ˜€

    haha, we all in the same boat lah.

  7. Sulz, I know the feeling when you get your passport, I was too was elated.

    As for the tag you have given me, music is incidental to me. I hardly retain the lyrics. You have put me into dilemma about the tag, not sure I can deliver anything worthwhile. 😦

    But I like the next tag. πŸ™‚

    sulz: i love the newness of my passport, but at the same time i was wondering inside, this little thing costs rm300?? πŸ˜†

    haha, just link to a few of your favourite songs, it’s about as easy as that! or you could do the other meme instead. it’s all in the name of fun. πŸ™‚

  8. I’m looking to e-mail a local to know about the place where I’m going for my summer course (which I will reveal to you dear readers once I have truly stepped foot upon that country).

    I have always admired your ability to create suspense.

    sulz: haha, that is because i’m the biggest tease i know. :mrgreen: you can do it too if you’re inclined like that. πŸ˜‰

  9. sulz, congrats on your passport! It’s very attractive! I noticed you did not show us the picture inside! πŸ˜‰ I liked your 2nd meme. I realize it’s how you see yourself, but you blatantly lied at one point: “i am not: very smart.” Hah! You big liar! πŸ˜•
    crazyazuka, I was sad to read this: “Nobody likes us Colombians” I know two people very well from Colombia here in the US, and everyone likes them, they are wonderful people. One just became a US citizen, and it felt a little weird to her, since she gave up her Colombian citizenship and still has family there. The other is still a Colombian citizen. Both travel home twice a year or so, and they tell me Colombia is very beautiful, but can be a hard place to live. You would be very welcome in the US, and I’m sure the countries you are considering would value you too. πŸ™‚

    sulz: thanks! haha, it would have lessen the beauty of my passport, my picture. πŸ˜€ ’tis not a lie; sometimes i feel my blog is so fluffy next to all those political blogs or blogs which talk about really deep stuff like seo and social bookmarkings. :mrgreen:

    i agree with you muse, i love colombians, ever since i saw once miss universe pageant in the 80s where a miss colombia won. πŸ˜› i was too young to know how controversial beauty pageants were from a feminist point of view, but really i just love to watch them in their evening gowns and the interview session.

  10. Yay, sulz got a passport! And your country has a nice emblem. Ours has 4 lions in it. Ever seen it? Keeping that aside, when do I get a party?! πŸ˜›

    And you’re the only one who read/did that meme. Rest of them all kept consoling me. I should do that meme again..I mean it must be feeling sad because it didn’t get much attention. Meme’s have feelings, right? 😦

    And you really should get a boyfriend now, dammit!

    And “I’m usually found in front of the computer” sounds very Discovery Channel-ish. You know..when they do these programs on animal species. But I’ve said the same thing on the NightWriter’s blog. We’re weird creatures, bloggers. But at least we have one common habitat. We’re all found in front of the computers. πŸ˜›

    As for interacting with people. Here’s a lame suggestion – Make an account on Download Yahoo Messenger. Enter into chatrooms..or precisely the chatroom of the country you’re going to. They have country based chat rooms there. So go into one of them, impress some male with your charms and get the details. Simple enough, no? πŸ˜‰

    sulz: thanks! and no, i haven’t. and what’s this about a party? *scratches head*

    see, that’s the extent of my word. when i say i’ll do it, i would! i was thinking it would be difficult to do, since i’m not that into music the way i am into books, but it turned out quite okay actually. πŸ™‚ haha, that cracked me up! it’s ‘cos we all love you that the meme was somewhat ignored. πŸ˜‰

    haha, let’s make it my next blogging project. πŸ˜‰ hahaha… that would be quite sad!

    yes, us weirdo bloggers, spending our lives hunching over the computer, antisocials who are online to… socialise through blogs. πŸ˜• haha!

    i didn’t know yahoo have chat rooms like that! i’m a bit wary with chat rooms, all the good guys are either taken up or have taken up blogging. πŸ˜€ if i’m feeling adventurous, i might just wander into the underbelly of the online social world that is chat rooms…

  11. @ish: which meme are you talking about? the second one. I like that meme. But you had a bad habit in those days over-flooding your posts with so many memes, perhaps that is why, you feel that it did not get the attention it deserved. Though I must say all your posts generate lot of attention.

    sulz: haha, blogging homework much? πŸ˜› there’s no denying ish is the master of comments. i don’t know how one simple post can generate hundreds of comments. πŸ˜• i don’t think i will know even if i understood hindi!

  12. Passporto!!! Well Congrats. πŸ™‚
    I got one made when I was joining my company. It was a prerequisite. But it feels good although I have never used it till date. 😦
    //i want: a boyfriend, dammit!
    i have: no boyfriend, dammit!
    πŸ˜† You are quite desperate, it seems. Why don’t you try what Ish is suggesting. Although I am not sure if it provides “happily ever after” solutions. πŸ™‚

    sulz: haha, why did they make you do it then! i mean, if you had to go overseas for a company trip, you could just as well make it before then. companies nowadays, don’t just want your life, they want your passport too, haha. πŸ˜€

    believe me, if i were really desperate i’d ask ish to be my boyfriend. :mrgreen: or write a post advertising for one! πŸ˜† i think ish suggestion was to look for a local to tell me about the country i’m going to for my summer course? anyway, i am scared of chat rooms; they are either full of sick perverts or mindless idiots.

  13. […] Published May 13, 2008 Film, Theatre, TV and Music , Personal Tagged by Sulz. Think of THE song that most inspires you to write, whether it gives you an idea for a story, […]

  14. Oi, don’t you scratch your head about parties! I need one because you got your first passport! Now! 😐

    Yea, you love me. And I love all of you too and that’s the reason I didn’t shout when everyone ignored it.

    And having a new boyfriend as the next blogging project isn’t a bad idea at all! First people will submit their resume and then you grade them according to your will and finally chose one of them as your boyfriend. It’s perfect, I tell you!

    Yea, we bloggers are completely haha. I mean..after reading my blog, who’d think that when I go to a marriage, I sit alone in a corner right?

    Yes, Yahoo does have chatrooms like that. I mean I’ve spent half of my chatting career in rooms like that. And the rest of it was spent in the Tennis room.

    @Poonam: I was talking about this meme which Sulz has done here. I had done this in my “The bubble Bursts” post. Not many noticed it sadly. But yeah, you’re right, I have done quite a few meme’s within posts lately. But how do you say no when people tag you?

    @Amit: Yep, my suggestion was for finding about the country, not for finding boyfriends. πŸ˜›

    @Sulz: “believe me, if i were really desperate i’d ask ish to be my boyfriend.”

    Now you’ve really pissed me off. Don’t you know women are desperate to have me as their boyfriend?! Seriously?!

    Oh, and as far as your opinion about chatroom guys goes, it depends on the room you enter really. I was born out of Yahoo chat. And if you’d met me like 2 years back, I would’ve hooked you up with a hot Romanian friend of mine. There were really cool guys in the room I used to visit, you know.

    sulz: haha, i don’t remember any mention about parties before, that’s why i’m scratching! anyway, you’re out of luck, india is not the destination i’m heading for my summer course. πŸ˜›

    it’d be perfect if i had photographic evidence to entice such candidates. unfortunately, i don’t think i’m the blogger’s equivalent to shows like the bachelorette, hahahaha!

    hahaha, name me those desperate women! it sure explains your eligibility, since you intend to get the most out of playing the field it looks like. πŸ˜‰

    yeah, i guess there are exceptions to every rule or generalisations. romanian, huh? i bet he gives great hickeys. :mrgreen:

  15. @Ish : //And I love all of you too and that’s the reason I didn’t shout when everyone ignored it.
    Someone is angry!!!!
    We all love you Ish, don’t worry about that at all. πŸ˜€
    And, ok, finally you asked Sulz use her charm on the males after she gets into a chatroom…I guess I got confused by that. πŸ˜€
    @Sulz : I think it takes atleast a month to get the passport, that’s why they want it before you enter the company so that they can kick you in any country anytime. πŸ˜‰
    And you can make Ish your boyfriend, but long distance relationships are hard to maintain. πŸ™‚

    sulz: oh, like that… ‘cos it only takes a day to make your passport in malaysia, woot. πŸ™‚

    please! if ish were my boyfriend, we’d make a great couple since we’re perpetually online. :mrgreen: he’d always be there for me! won’t you, ish babes? πŸ˜‰

    (hahahaaha, i’m so rotflmao!)

  16. Ish babes?!

    ROFLMAO, I’ll need at least a day to recover from that. LOL.

    OMG seriously, LOL.

    sulz: we were going to have our own internet tv reality show, you know, ‘cos we have such wit and chemistry, until as a screen test they saw our photos in facebook. πŸ˜•


  17. Indian passports are blue in colour with the Satyamev Jayate emblem as described by ish. Congrats on your passport.

    Meme’s completed as per your wish. πŸ™‚

    sulz: hmm, wonder how that looks like? thanks for playing the meme! πŸ™‚

  18. […] blogging project (which will take place before, during and after summer course) 5. Should I make this my another blogging project? You decide, […]

  19. Ahahah. But then again, we’re teh shit hot man! Or maybe that’s why we got rejected. Too Hot for TV. We’d fry the circuits. πŸ˜›

    sulz: we’d make great cartoon together though, i believe! teh shit-sons. :mrgreen:

  20. LOLOL. I love the name already. I’m Homer shit-son! πŸ˜€

    sulz: hmm, margaret doesn’t go well with me. neither does blue hair. and so does your turban. πŸ˜›

    oh well, that’s why we’re the shit-sons! and instead of bart simpson, we have berk shit-son for our son. πŸ˜€

  21. passport, huh? Well know maybe you can make the blogcatalog party that you hear us talking about. So far it’s in Vegas in the fall, but we’re trying to petition a move to the east coast.

    You’ve gotta come to the states. You’ll be bigger than the Beatles!!! I can see it now. Network TV promos, red carpet treatment, even a sidekick or two. πŸ™‚

    sulz: haha, i still need the dough, man. are you going to go?

    hahahaha, that is a very nice fantasy! πŸ˜€

  22. and Indian passports too cost about 1500 indian rupees.

    @Sulz: I was out of town for two days, will try to do ASAP.

    sulz: wow, it’s cheap to make passport at india! it costs rm300 here, but yours costs about rm188.

    hey no problem, take your time. πŸ™‚

  23. Independence? Learning to cook your own dinner πŸ˜› But as my passport goes, the whole affair of renewing was a royal pain because I got the not-quite-stoned, not-quite-mug shot kind of face for photos, which is horrendous!

    sulz: oh yeah, but not just any dinner, a healthy, nutritious dinner. πŸ˜‰ haha yeah, i was worried about my photo because they posted up some rules for photos they don’t allow, was afraid i have to go take my picture in the photo booth with the horrible queue.

  24. It was healthy, actually; I cooked up some soy sausages and veggies πŸ˜› But no, I’m not vegetarian because I like my medium rare dead-cow meat too much πŸ™‚ But I’d rather eat from a cow who had a good, ripe old life than a cow who was just born to die after a year of being born.

    sulz: i could never have dinner in your house. πŸ˜• that is too healthy!

  25. wow, it’s cheap to make passport at india! it costs rm300 here, but yours costs about rm188.
    Erm… well you have to wait for it to arrive. In the cities its normally a one month procedure whereas everywhere else anything from 2 months to 6 months! Trust me, I check the statuses of countless people. If you want it fast, I think the fees are around Rs.4000 something. Not sure about that.

    sulz: oooh like that… i rather pay rm300 and have it all done in about 5 hours, heh. πŸ˜›

  26. @Ashish: Nah! Now you get your passpost in 2 months time and you can track the status online. It is punishable offense if you do not get your passport on time.

    Also, you can get passport in 3-5 days if you take tatkal (instant translating literally in English, but you shell out 1k more.

  27. Oh thats the official timeline for the cities. The other areas have time lines of 2-6 months. And punishable offence? Yeah right. Like any indian person is gonna go complain, they’d rather bribe the officers to get the applications moving. πŸ˜›

    As for passport statuses, they’re screwed as heck. I’d give you a list of what statuses to expect but there would be no use. lol. Just remember that if you get “Application in Process” you’re majorly screwed. Theres a passport agency just next to me so I know. Don’t quote me on rates though, it includes the agent fees + bribes. lol.

    Tatkal passports in 8 days.

  28. Too healthy? Alamak, teruk-lah you! πŸ˜€

    sulz: but it’s true! πŸ˜›

  29. Just discovered your blog (thanks to your reply in the fora).
    Quickly: To answer to one of your questions. When it comes to travelling:

    sulz: hi, welcome! πŸ™‚ thanks for the link, i found some pictures of local macau spots!

  30. Passports… Both my two passports have the same colours as yours (Sulz’s). One is from Madagascar (the first) and the other, from my other country (Dual citizenship, yup!). Funny that first time I travelled with both, it happened many times at checking desks that I handed the wrong one instead of the other. lol

    sulz: must be nice to have two passports. πŸ˜€ must you show both, or just one?

  31. Also, when it comes to travelling, I like to use this site for info search:

    Of course, if it’s about Madagascar, you could always ask me πŸ™‚

    sulz: will keep that in mind. πŸ˜‰

  32. CC passports, one is usually enough. lol When I lived in Europe, I used my Malagasy passport to leave that European country because I was heading to Madagascar. Reversaly, when I returned from my hols (in Madagascar), I had to show my European passport at the Madagascar airport desk (because I intended to enter the European Union)

    If travelling with my Malagasy passport, I have to apply for visa (for most countries) whilst my other passport being European, travelling was made a lot easier.

    sulz: ah, so that is the benefit of having two passports! wish i could have one more, haha. πŸ˜€

  33. […] Sulz tagged me for the following meme. Again I am late on this one. I am not much into music and stick to ones that my ear likes. Most of the songs I listed here are ones those are commonly known. Only some will not know the Hindi songs. Think of THE song that most inspires you to write, whether it gives you an idea for a story, script or just puts you into a better frame of mind AND/OR peek into the lyrics and find a verse that sums up the theme of whatever project it is you’re working on. If possible, post a video of the song to convey to readers the full context of the song and the mood it puts you into. Finally, send the assignment to five other writers to do as well. […]

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