I don’t know why, but lately I have this desire to have a boyfriend.
Okay, I do know why. It just seems peculiar that the desire is particularly overwhelming. I mean, I’ve always wanted a boyfriend, but it’s not like, damn, I don’t have a boyfriend, what the hell is wrong with me?? It’s more like, yeah, I want a boyfriend, but I’m not going to proactively look for one.
Why don’t I have a boyfriend, anyway? (Well, technically I did, one measly one bloody ages ago.)
1. Unconventional beauty
As in, not exactly physically beautiful. I’m not an ogre, but I’m no Miss Universe either. And I don’t want to be either of that, anyway. I like most of myself, though I admit I could lose a few pounds, but I don’t enjoy dieting or exercising, so there’s that.
2. Painfully shy
It takes me forever to warm up to anybody, and doubly more for the opposite sex. I also notice guys do not consciously want to talk to me the way they do with my prettier friends, well, at least the guys I have met. Which on one level, doesn’t bother me much because I’m painfully shy to begin with, but on another level makes me wonder if I am so unattractive as to be giving out undesirable vibes?
3. Virtually all-female environment
Even though I have gone to co-ed schools and colleges, my circle of friends are almost all female. I have very few guy friends, and of course those I look at as brothers, nothing more. All my previous part-time jobs were the same – female bosses, female colleagues. Okay, that’s my doing, since I look for part-time jobs in boutiques and the likes.
Alright, I’ve just proven to myself that my severe lack of love life is for the most part my doing, if not entirely. The most obvious reason for my failure to snag a guy is this – desire. For someone who desires a boyfriend, I’m sure as hell not doing anything to achieve that, am I?? I mean, if you want something, you gotta do something to get there, right? Okay, so maybe love isn’t entirely up to just mere effort, but the odds are definitely better with effort, isn’t it?
So, yeah, I’m making effort right now. I need your help. (Hahahaha, so much for effort – asking for help!)
YOU… are going to play matchmaker for sulz. Based on your perception of me, choose a celebrity or fictional character to play my fantasy boyfriend. No real life people, please! (I mean, celebrities are surreal, so that’s acceptable. What I mean is please don’t tell me Ish should be my fantasy boyfriend on the basis that I might have had a crush on him… or CJWriter for that matter for the same reason.)
ps. This is not the fantasy post I was talking about. Haha, I’m such a bloody tease, aren’t I? 😀
pps. Thanks for all the fantasy boyfriend suggestions! I have my social calendar quite ‘filled up’ with dates with them. 😉