Some people are good at drawing. Some people are good at making you feel like you’re the most fascinating person they’ve ever known. Me… I think I’m good with words. I think so, and it’s thanks to you, dear reader, who helped me affirm this thought.
I’ve been blogging for two and a half years. There are differences in the way I write between these years, and not just that I’m using personal pronouns now (while I did not then). I know it’s different, but I don’t really know how to describe the difference in my writing. It’s more positive? Yes, but I feel it’s more than that, even though I can’t describe it.
How do you come into the picture? Well, you read my posts, you comment on them, you write posts based on what I’ve written, you’re interested in me… all these, multiplied by people like you and over time, really affirms my ability in writing.
I’m not expressive in person. I find it hard to say a heartfelt sorry, but give me a pen and a piece of paper and I can write my sincere contrition. I feel awkward hugging people, but give me a blog and I can make you feel my affection. So it is through blogging, through writing, through words that I am able to express myself best. And you… you, saw the best in me, encouraged it, and brought out the best in me.
I truly believe sulz in writing is the best side of me. That isn’t to say that sulz in person is horrible or less worthy, but it is through words that I can truly express myself to connect with you. And yet, words fail me now to express how grateful and blessed and appreciated and loved I am because you read my words.
As you read this, I am probably on my way to the airport, luggage packed and quivering – oh, that’s me, nervous with anticipation – or maybe I’m on the plane already, my heart going all queer as I embark on a journey that will teach me so much… but what you’ve taught me, I keep in my heart and they will help me through my one month in Macau.
Missing you already. 🙂
The title of this post is taken from a Carrie Underwood song – one of my favourite of hers.
Hey guys! I’m so lucky to have a roommate who has a laptop!! I’ve just arrived at the hostel, tired and sweaty. The flight was good on takeoff, but I felt absolutely nauseous when we were landing. And you know how vomit-phobic I am… Anyway, going off to dinner now. Just let you know I’m safe and sound. And hey, I’m strangely not homesick yet!!