Sometimes I feel scared to write about certain issues in my blog because I’m afraid of how you might react to it.
Then I think again. Isn’t the essence of blogging personal expression? To say what you think, what you want to say without fear, even if your reader doesn’t necessarily agree with you? Isn’t that why blogging is so popular – because we have a space to talk about whatever we want to?
Then I know why. I don’t want to ruin the image you have of me. The image built up from all the nice, good posts you liked and enjoyed reading. I want you to have the same experience each time you read my latest post. Part of that experience is based on the image you have of me.
And what is my image to you? Friendly / cheery / insecure / bitchy / cheeky / ditzy / insert your adjective here?
Image… It is part of me, but it is not entirely me. That’s why I allow negative comments in my blog, and write angry or sad or embarrassing posts. I try hard to portray as many sides of me there is, to show that I’m not perfect. Yet, there is a part of me who wishes these imperfect sides are not shown because it’s quite embarrassing to display such a private side to me so publicly.
But further yet, I actually admire people who have the guts to say politically incorrect things or reveal really personal stuff about themselves. They are not ashamed and not afraid, even if there are consequences.
Kinda ironic… there are things I couldn’t say to the people in my life, so I blog. And now, there are things I can’t say to the people in my blog, so I… keep them to myself.
Oh well, I suppose I can’t possibly reveal everything about me! Gotta retain some mystery? 😀