Sigh… my trip to Bangkok is not happening. Not after news like this. 😦 I actually cried when it sank in that I’m not going to Bangkok after setting my heart on it. But I think I’m having PMS, so…
Angel & I are considering… visiting Lovelyloey!
Colorgenics Number: 73120546
Is it that you are working – or even playing – too hard? [YES.] Because it would seem that you are experiencing a great deal of pent-up emotion at this time which could possibly take effect and lead to irrational behaviour.
You are very self-sufficient and methodical. [NO.] You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, ‘Simpatico’. [YES.]
Many people will consider you egotistical and full of your own self importance. [Oh dear.] On the surface you could well give this impression and perhaps the reason for this complacent attitude is because at times you indeed have that ‘short fuse’ and are quick to take offence. [YES.]
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn’t matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don’t really care. You treat those who criticise you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others. [Sigh, yes.]
The need for admiration and to be regarded as ‘someone special’ is perhaps one of the foremost aims in your life at this time. You would like to perhaps do something outrageous or anything that will give you the chance to be recognised as someone special. [My wanting to dye my hair blue explained?] This desire has now almost become an obsession and in your own way you are trying to fulfil this ‘complex’ by ensuring you are the centre of attention, both at work or play, or in the home. Stop trying so hard and you will find that people will like you for who you are – not for who you are pretending to be.
… but playing in the rain can be fun, with the right company. 🙂