sulz woke up with a cloud hanging over her head. She felt troubled since last week, when she developed a mysterious allergy. She has been itching and scratching since last Tuesday. The doctor confirmed she has hives and is allergic to something. What, she hasn’t found out. The medication provided by the doctor was very welcomed. She popped them religiously until the pharmacist told her that it was not good to take them on a long term when she tried to buy more medication over the counter. Doing a simple research online pointed out that prednisolone is indeed not good in a prolonged period and is said to cause muscle deterioration, osteoporosis and weakened immunity system among other scary things. Even though she has only taken them for less than a week she is getting paranoid about taking any more.
She has never been allergic her whole life to anything so it is very peculiar and somewhat frustrating that she is getting hives. So she is at the moment trying hard not to take any except at night because she needs to sleep. Meanwhile, throughout the day she has been trying to distract herself from scratching herself to death. Long, tight pants and long-sleeved tops helps to mask the itchiness somewhat. At first she thought it was the computer she was allergic to – seriously – because the hives starts whenever she uses the computer. Now she is wondering if it’s the heat and weather that’s causing her hives, or maybe even stress, because the hives come back whenever the medication’s effect wears out.
Things on the work end are not much better either. Has been cursing herself for offering to stay an extra one month because she is getting very restless, dissatisfied and displeased by the current circumstances and her bad decision. The place brings her down emotionally and getting to work is such a horrible chore these days. She is not bothered or focused with her work and that feeds further to her overall unpleasant feelings about work because when she’s not giving it her best she doesn’t feel good about doing it and she’ll probably make mistakes, which she did and a big one at that…
You know, other than these two problems, there isn’t really much else that should be bothering sulz all that much. Yet why is she feeling so down in the dumps today? Could it be PMS? But she’s having her period right now – shouldn’t PMS strike before the period? Maybe it’s the effects of taking the allergy medication? Maybe it’s both of that and a case of Monday blues, making a cocktail of misery?
Sigh… I feel so out of sorts today.