Physically and Financially in the Red

The mosquitoes are still in my body and that has caused me to be turned off blogging lately. I worry about when it will end so I can stop taking drugs that could harm my body in the long run. I try to take the medication every other day to lessen the side effects but sometimes the itching is too unbearable.

Reading more about hives online tells me that I have little chance of ever finding out what I’m allergic to. It couldn’t possibly be food because I would not be having hives the whole day without medication if I am allergic to some food. It could be stress or the weather, as I mentioned before. It could be something I picked up from my recent vacation in Bangkok too, as Aathira commented in my previous post.

Supposedly this hives shouldn’t last more than 6 weeks. If it does then it will be a chronic case. I’ve been suffering from it for two and a half weeks now. I hope the end of it is near…

My physically red condition – you should see the hives when I’m trying not to medicate – reflects my financially red situation. Ever since I started working my expenditure has risen out of proportion to what I earn.

The first big splurge I made was for my room. I spent some and borrowed RM500 from M for further spending. Bed, sheets, curtains, bookshelves, cupboard… I have not paid that debt yet.

While still owing M that amount, I splurged on another big thing: my vacation to Bangkok. The whole trip cost over RM1000, including airfare, shopping, food, commuting, accommodation. I am still owing Angel’s cousin for the hotel because the credit card statement has not arrived. I am really worried the bill will be over the amount I am expecting to pay because this was not the hotel I initially agreed on for budgeting reasons. It was a good hotel, but I hope it won’t damage my pocket too much.

Then I lost RM600, which is really not helping at all in my financial situation. That RM600 could have settled my hotel debt and left some over to pay M. I also spent a lot on books this month because there were three book sales and I know I’d kick myself if I didn’t go despite not being in the right financial situation to splurge on books.

I have not been good with my money ever since I started work. I had saved a sum of money but had taken that sum out to buy a long-needed new pair of glasses and a new supply of contact lenses. I also withdrawn money from my account to pay for my French lessons previously. Which means I have basically not saved anything since I started work.

Every month, I give my parents half my paycheck to cover my expenses at home: food, petrol, broadband, et cetera. I pay RM150 every month for my study loan repayment. Usually I am left with RM500+ for myself.

Sigh, this is a very depressing post for me. I want to stop itching. I want to stop owing people money. I want to be out of the red now.

ps. This money-related news is even sadder.