I’ve just replied the last comment to my recent post pondering about happiness and it got me thinking a bit more.
It’s no secret that I’ve been on and off happy and sad ever since I’ve started working. Well, it’s not like it’s all happy happy when I was in college, but I feel my moods drastically alternate between one end and the other more frequently and more intensely. I have a love-hate relationship with my new life.
It struck me that my life the past year has been very unbalanced. From thoroughly enjoying being a student to adjusting being a worker, the transition has not been smooth-flowing and till now I’m not sure if I feel like a proper worker. The door to studenthood seems closed to me, for personal and financial reasons, yet I’m not embracing the workerhood.
I like this job best out of all the three I’ve done, and feel confident of doing a good job. But to spend 48 hours a week at work, even if it’s something I enjoy doing… it leaves little time for other things that I also enjoy doing, like reading and Facebooking and taking it easy.
The office politics at the bookshop leaves much to be desired as well. Indeed, office politics occur everywhere simply because that’s what happens when you have different personalities working together and are predominantly female. There’s only so much control you can have over such a situation and what you can’t control you can’t do anything about it. You can go ahead and let your work speak for itself, but at the same time you’re human and prone to errors, and that’s what makes me worried in regards to office politics.
So what would be a more balanced life for me? A little less working hours, less office politics, a bit more flexible working schedule, much more of a social life… Maybe that could happen once I’m confirmed at this job. Cross fingers.
On my part, I should worry a whole lot less, be less sensitive, be a bit more upfront, be more careful…