i’ve been bad with my blog.

and i’m sorry. well, i know i’m not obliged write anything if i don’t feel like it but if there’s anyone who is still checking bloggerdygook occasionally then i’d feel bad there’s nothing new for the past few weeks. don’t worry, i haven’t been kidnapped by the older friends haha. somehow don’t feel the need to share things in my life.

but i should. not so much for your curious eyes but for me to read this in the future, so that i remember what i was going through at this point in time. nothing bad has happened, though nothing particularly good has happened either. still enjoying my job, though there are some things i dislike about it but i just grit my teeth and get them over with. still enjoying hanging out with my colleagues – i feel comfortable enough to be my zany self but not to the point i would open up with really personal stuff. i think that kind of stuff is best told to people who aren’t working with you.

like ex-college mates. i keep in touch with the usual three. i also still hang out with two ex-school mates every now and then. and there’s the ex-colleagues from the bookshop, with whom i can have lunch anytime cos all i have to do is pop by the place. and every now and then i meet up with a friend who’s a book lover like i am, and i borrow books from this person. there’s also my former language teacher who i meet up every month or so because she lives near my former workplace.

so all in all, i am loving my social life. i have many small circle of friends and i hope it will stay like this for a long time more.

i don’t go out all that often though, that said. i need to save up because i’m going on a vacation to bali at the end of the year! if i’m not out, i’ll be at home devouring more books. i try to read half a dozen books every month.

what else, what else… i feel quite empty in my head. i loved that i use to write my innermost thoughts here. why did that have to change? these days i feel as if i have no opinion. and if i do i don’t feel like sharing them here. and even if i wanted to i’d have forgotten by the time i start typing and talk about drivel like the above. but hey, it’s my drivel so…

i guess i would like to be a better blogger but i just don’t have the passion anymore. usually, when i’m feeling like this in the past, i would announce a break in blogging or a ‘i quit’ kind of post. but i won’t do that now, not because i think i will get my mojo back some day but because i don’t have to be the blogger i used to be. i just need to figure out how to fit this blog into my life now in such a way that it fulfills a certain aspect of me and not just there because it has been there for so long. if you get what i mean. i’m not sure what nonsense i write about sometimes!

lalala.

when you are flat broke and have a day off and have exhausted all your usual online haunts, you inevitably make your way back to your virtual ‘home’ and since you have nothing else better to do, you enter it and start writing rubbish on the walls…

by the way, replace ‘you’ with ‘sulz’. i have this habit of projecting myself outside, as if talking about you makes it seem less like i was really talking about me, though we all know who is ‘you’ really.

anyway! i have nothing else better to do and nothing that i particularly want to write about. thankfully, a quick blog hop and i found something i have not done in a long time… a meme.

this one is called the 65 things tag according to perx whose blog i found it from. simply cross the things in the list which i have done.

1. Graduated high school.
2. Kissed someone.
3. Smoked a cigarette.
4. Got so drunk you passed out.
5. Rode every ride at an amusement park.
6. Collected something stupid.
7. Gone to a rock concert.
8. Helped someone.
9. Gone fishing.
10. Watched four movies in one night.
11. Lied to someone.
12. Snorted cocaine.
13. Smoked weed.
14. Failed a subject.
15. Been in a car accident.
16. Been in a tornado.
17. Watched someone die.
18. Been to a funeral.
19. Burned yourself.
20. Run a marathon.
21. Cried yourself to sleep.
22. Spent over 10,000 bucks in one day.
23. Flown on an aeroplane.
24. Cheated on someone.
25. Been cheated on.
26. Written a 10 page letter.
27. Gone skiing.
28. Been sailing.
29. Cut yourself.
30. Had a best friend.
31. Lost someone you loved.
32. Got into trouble for something you didn’t do.
33. Stolen a book from the library.
34. Gone to a different country.
35. Watched the Harry Potter movies.
36. Had an online diary.
37. Fired a gun.
38. Gambled in a casino.
39. Been in a school play.
40. Been fired from a job.
41. Taken a lie detector test.
42. Swam with dolphins.
43. Voted for someone on a reality TV show.
44. Written poetry.
45. Read more than 20 books a year.
46. Gone to Europe.
47. Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
48. Used a colouring book over age 12.
49. Had a surgery.
50. Had stitches.
51. Taken a Taxi.
52. Had more than 5 IM conversations going on at once.
53. Been in a fist fight.
54. Suffered any form of abuse.
55. Had a pet.
56. Petted a wild animal.
57. Had your own credit card & bought something with it.
58. Dyed your hair.
59. Got a tattoo.
60. Had something pierced.
61. Got straight A’s.
62. Known someone personally with HIV or AIDS.
63. Taken pictures with a webcam.
64. Lost something expensive.
65. Gone to sleep with music on.

i think the most interesting thing i crossed in the list is no. 33 which incidentally is the number of the house i formerly lived in.

but to elaborate more on my personal state – as you can tell from the lack of exclamation marks these days, i am not very chirpy. however, i am not feeling restless about my job as before. i am more worried about it being my job still.

more in the next post.

stuck

my car nearly overheated. again. so i am now marooned on a very noisy island amid the sea of traffic jam, said noisy island being a fast food joint. ate, read, peed, so now nothing left to do but experiment. so i am trying to blog from my mobile. if you can read this it means i can.

not in a good mood now so i shall stop here. on the other hand my days as a reporter shall be over soon and i can’t wait for that to happen.

Sent from my Nokia 6760 slide

Hmm

Twenty Questions

Swiped this meme from BobbyG.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
No thoughts, really. The brain has not quite loaded itself yet! Or unless you’re talking about when it’s time to get dressed. I’m probably thinking, “Do I feel fat today?”

2. How much cash do you have in your wallet right now?
RM36, which is like USD$10?

3. Do you label yourself?
Mostly the negative ones.

4. What does your watch look like?
I don’t have a watch. I look for the time on my mobile phone.

5. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Fuming at a neighbour who was blasting some sport racing game. His room was right next to mine so it was really really loud. I shouted from my window to voice my displeasure. About 20 minutes later the person shut off the tv. Arsehole.

6. What’s a word that you say a lot?
So.

7. Who told you he/she loved you last?
I don’t remember.

8. Last furry thing you touched?
I don’t remember either.

9. What was the last thing you said to someone?
I think I’m getting premature Alzheimer’s.

10. The last song you listened to?
Some oldie on the radio.

11. Where did you live five years ago?
Here.

12. Are you jealous of anyone?
Yes. Mostly of people who seemed to have their lives all mapped out, or are just living life to the fullest.

13. Is anyone jealous of you?
Nope. I don’t even want to be me sometimes, why would anyone want to be me??

14. Name three things that you have on you at all times.
Clothes, phone and book.

15. What’s your favourite town/city?
I’ve only been to Macau and Bangkok. I’d like to stay in Macau for an indefinite period of time, but I’d love to visit Bangkok for the shopping and excitement.

16. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
I sent a book to crazyasuka and wrote a short note there, so that’s about it.

17. Can you change the oil on a car?
I can’t even change a flat tyre!

18. What is your current desktop picture?
A picture of Macau Tower, to commemorate where I was the previous year at this time.

19. When did you start your blog?
January 1 2006.

20. What country would you like to live in other than your own?
I don’t know. I’m sure I’d love to live anywhere else because it’s new and exciting, but in reality I’d want to live where I feel safe. And that means I would live with people I trust my life with nearby.

Dis mynx gif lynx

Another day of not knowing what to blog about so I give you… links!

I have a feeling I’ve posted this link before. For penguin lovers or just something cute to send to a friend.

Instead of googling something, you can be sulzing something here. Well, not quite really if you did try to sulz.

And finally, there’s a “blog” that “talks” nothing but “unnecessary quotes”. I’m certain Lynne Truss must be behind this.

Post title is dedicated someone who has been writing Facebook status in lolcat-speak. It was mighty exasperating, I tell you!

Toodelz.